Great Weekend

I had one of the best weekends. On Saturday I went to a womans conference and heard the best speakers. They were uplifting and enlightening. I loved it. I got exactly what I was looking for to be recharged and spiritually ready to go. I always love these things. I have never came away from them saying wow that was a waste. I go in the ready to be taught something new and always get what I am looking for.

Daughter 1 is having trouble again in YW. I don't know how to fix this for her. Or even if I should attempt to. Every time I open my mouth it makes things worse. So maybe I will sit this one out. Let her figure it out for herself. Even though I hate to feel like I am not doing enough for her. She is a smart one.

Friday

I am so glad that it is Friday! Not that I don't just love my new job but this week family wise has been hectic. Son has strep and the girls have a bad case of Drama Queen. Have you ever hear of that virus? The symptoms are crying for no reason. loudly, screaming,throwing oneself down to the ground, and declaring on a regular bases that some one is ruining your life. Need examples?Well , Let me fill you in! It starts out with the 14 year old screaming at the top of her lungs that "You have ruined my life! If I cant go to the tanning spa and tan then I will be an eight grade outcast at the formal." then in the middle of that the 11 year old girl begins jumping up and down throwing herself on the ground screaming like hairy carry has been committed on her. Only to f ind out she claims she has stepped on something. When I look at her foot there is no evidence of it. Which I tell her causing her to stomp ( Without a limp) out of the room screaming " you never never pay attention to me! I am in the middle and no one ever pays attention to me." She then goes to her room and cries as loud as she can. Making sure everyone inside and outside of the house can hear.
Ok now you have the symptoms and examples of this erratic behavior can you picture these 2 wonderful little girls doing these things? Try real hard because.. Yes there is more.This virus of bad behavior spreads. Oh, Yes it does. It spreads even to the animals that you have living in your home. And it only spreads at the worst times. Like when you are running late for work. Or you are sick and only wish you could go back to bed. Or when you are on the phone. The way to know that it is spreading is that the dog will begin to jump all over the house barking. The cats of the house will become the dogs target of attack and they will begin hissing and slapping as the dog is barking and jumping. While this goes on it signals the nine year old boy of the house to begin screaming and jumping with the dog and cats. At this moment I swear the fish are even laughing at all of the chaos.

This is every morning. The only thing that changed this morning was that the nine year old boy was sick with strep. So he wasn't there to agg on the dog and cats. I hope he is better by morning.

Great Day

Today me and the kids went to the Zoo. It was so great. I just let them be silly and be themselves. Hubby was to sick to go and that was a bummer. We only went for a few hours but it showed me that I should do things with just us 5 and not invite the whole world. Just let us have some family time.
I think that I may have reached my son some today. I made sure to take extra care to love on him and keep him close. I did that intervals with each child. But I really think I reached him.

This morning hubby woke up and looked at me and told me that he needed, loved and couldn't live without me. It was so sweet. Spontaneous and real. I love this man more than humanly possible to ever love another person. He is the best husband, friend and Father.

It was a Great Day.

Change... Not always a bad thing.

You know people say all the time Can you believe how so and so changed? I cant believe she or he has changed so much. Well, My opinion, and you know I was going to give it) is that if you don't reflect at least once a day on something that you are going to change then You are in some real trouble. It could be rearranging your cubicle, to a life altering deep change. I have made several changes as I have stated in the past. It took awhile to get to the point to say ok enough is enough I am DONE with this issue pressing on my mind how am I going to fix it.

Now I am not saying that I am all powerful Miss Perfect.I am saying that I am trying. These are the things that have impacted me the most to make changes and some of the changes I have made.

First of all my children. All three of those wonderful small beings that my Heavenly Father has blessed me with. They changed the way I think from the day that I found out I was pregnant with my first one. I no longer could only think of me. I had to think and act for another human being. I am so grateful for my children. They have kept me grounded and out some serious bad situations.

Second My Husband. I love that man more than I ever knew you could love another Human being. He is defiantly my soul mate, my other half. If I never had him I would not be where I am today. And if I lost him I am not sure if I could breath, move, think or function ever again. He makes me laugh and holds me when I need to cry. He pushes me to be a better person. I look at him different each and every day. Our marriage has grown into this beautiful relationship that I never knew you could have with another person. My friend told me once she loved her husband so much that she could crawl up inside him and stay there and be perfectly happy. I didn't understand then what she meant.... but now.. Now I do. As much as we are one he still allows me to be m own person and encourages me every step of the way. Even if he does not agree. My wish is for all my children and all of you reading this finds this kind of love.

The next thing that has created change in me is this book that I read. A Heart Like His. It has made me stop and think about what thought I allow into my brain and how long I allow them to stay there. This is what I figured out. I can either let a depressing thought get into my head and fester making me miserable or I can force it out an be happy. I am working really hard to control my thought so that I can work on becoming more Christ like in thought and action.

Anyway what has brought on this rambling is that a friend has told me that I have changed. And my response to that is No I have grown and I am thankful for all the influenced that have come along to help with that.